They say once a dog is cornered, it would be able to jump walls, well don't make much sense when you translate it actually.....

My view upon Love in first sight, as geeky and 'scientific' as it may sound... I believe bears some twisted truth within....

Genes are made by amino acids, which have charges, each minute and almost neglegable, yet considering how much genes we have in our body, and how much it programmes how we are... Heritage plays quite an important part on shaping who we are, despite the environment.

The point is with such a vast amount of genes adding up, every person would have 'charges'... some call it karma, some call it aura. Compatibility is something odd, I haven't quite figure out the whole extend to how this interlates to how people react to each other, but to say the least it would bear down upon one the feel compel or comfortable, or out right hostile and discust. One of the more stronger feeling I suppose would be love in first sight.

I believe, not many compatibilities exist, so called the perfect match. However, because there's similarity that sometimes our innate senses would compel to fall for.

I also believe, a person's gene coding may not change, but due to the lack or luxurity of external environment, the 'aura' given out could alter in time. So how close do we live to the 'true' aura our genes give out?

Lately I would admit I am down a slump, a lot of things happened, I dare say I've not tried my best to resolve a lot of it. Which spirals into undesired results.

I live my life.... to have less regrets as possible, trying my best to move forward rather than mopping.

My choice had been made. The path I seek...

Lies been told, information with-held. I know that distinct feeling of 'couldn't care less' when someone I care for seems to feel cold, had I ever impose such a feeling too?

I seem to have a bad habit of leaving things to the end, where minds are made up and I usually get the lower end of things. I don't seem to fight a lot for things.

A scrambled brain I do have, do you know that distinct feeling that you just want to hide and lock yourself up? Your feelings that is, to not interact with anyone. Great many hands were given, that touches my heart to know who cares for me in time of needs.

'You're not the Koo I know' hits the core of my soul, making me think who am I in the eyes of others, many seen me during my best, and couldn't fanthom how a proud lad could fall. We all do sometimes. What's important is to pick yourself up again.

Emphaty they call it, some call it emotion leech. It might be a feeling of achievement, or merely a fog of diception, I know you feel it, when people around you are happy, you'll feel enlighten. Can't remember the proper word for it.... I seem to need to help others, in order to aid myself.

Forgive me, that when a hand is given that I didn't accept, curling in my own corner, and that I pray that when I am ready to accept it, it will not be too late as usual.

I have only one thing to say, be it something that seems trival to others, or out right foolish, but I do trust that you'll read this sooner or later, and I hope not too late.

I love you, from the bottom of my heart.